[ Leilani has missed Dorian horrendously, but there's some hesitation as she creeps her way onto his ship and makes her way to his room. She's got a bottle of wine in her hand and she makes her way through to his room, knocking on the door with a quiet tap tap tap of her knuckles. ]
[ He desperately needs to transfer- the atmosphere isn't the same, and his quarters still seem barren. Of course it's nothing to do with the trappings of the room. It will always feel empty. There's little for him here, and he spends his days much as he had before- reading what was available to him.
The knock on his door has him looking up, and his heart soars hearing the voice on the other side. Naturally, he gets up to answer it, holding it open for Leilani. ]
You know you don't need to announce yourself, don't you?
[ She slips into the room with a smile, shaking her head as she leans up to give him a quick, gentle kiss on the cheek. The distance between them is... Odd, and new, but she doesn't press him to transfer or make space for her here, not when he's just come back and he's settling into place again. Leilani has no desire to pressure him, no desire to make him feel as though he's obligated.
Not when Bull and Cyril are here and everything is bound to get complicated. ]
I just wanted to make sure you were alone. There wasn't a mark on the door.
[ His arm wraps around her in a brief and welcome hug, ushering her further in so he may close the door and lend them a bit of privacy. He will always feel obligated one way or the other, though he will defer to her judgment. He values her opinion quite a bit more than she probably realizes.
Dorian's life is one, large complication that has yet to unravel itself. He feigns offense, hand over his chest. ]
[ She's quick to move and place the bottle of wine on whatever surface is nearest before she goes and practically collapses on his bed, stretching both her arms - two! She has two arms! - out, wiggling to make herself comfortable. She's clearly tired but not willing to admit it, her smile soft and fond as she looks at Dorian. ]
Do you think I don't gossip with my friends, Serah Pavus?
[ Lifting her head, she grins. ]
We both have suitors. We just need to figure out how to handle them, don't we?
[ The invasion of space is welcoming beyond words, and it feels like what coming home must feel like. He settles into the space beside her hip, opting to sit down with his legs hanging over the bed's edge. ]
Should I be appalled that you're gossiping about me?
[ Her comment makes him stop, brow furrowing for just a moment. He doesn't know if suitor is the correct word to use with Cyril just yet. He's hesitant to put a label on anything in case the elf gets bored of him. Emotions are messy and sex is distracting. It's a much better alternative to heartbreak. ]
And how is our spirit friend treating you? I don't have to have words with him, do I?
[ All Leilani does is shift so she can press her face into his thigh, wiggling a little to make herself more comfortable, her smile soft and fond as she welcomes him at her side. She adores this man, she thinks. ]
I think you should be impressed that you're so interesting that we can't help ourselves.
[ Breathing out, she shifts, pushing herself back up and pushing hair out of her face. There's a discomforting twist in her stomach as he brings up Justice and she purses her lips before she speaks. ]
No, you don't have to say anything. I'm thinking it might be better for the both of us if I called things off.
I do love being the topic of conversation when it is in a positive light.
[ He watches as she shifts into a more upright position, trying to keep the concerned frown off his face. Dorian is about to voice his relief when she proposes to end everything. ]
Might I ask why? You were quite happy with your situation the last I was aware. What has changed?
What other trepidations do you have on the subject? I know you've not asked for my opinion.. however, you simply cannot compare every future liaison to being with Solas.
Is it easier not letting yourself feel something and avoiding it entirely than it is to simply enjoy something for one fleeting moment? Of course it will hurt, but being hurt feels better than feeling nothing..
[ That makes Leilani's eyes dart to him in surprise and a pang of something painful rip through her. She touches her hand to the jawbone and pushes herself up, walking over to the wine. Oh, she needs it, especially now. It hurts and her eyes are a little damp. ]
You're right. At least I'm not being stupid a second time.
[ As soon as it's out of his mouth, he instantly regrets it. The look on her face are painful, and he's a terrible person for giving her the reminder that she didn't need. He can't take them back, so it does little good for apologizing for what he's said, even if it was a bit crass. ]
It wasn't your fault, what he did. [ He rubs the bridge of his nose, trying to salvage something of this conversation. ]
I don't think this constitutes as stupid. Risky, perhaps.. but not stupid.
[ All she can do is shake her head. He's not wrong, that's the problem. Justice won't betray her, she's sure of that - it's in his nature to be good, and kind, and honest, even if it hurts other people, just as Dorian is being with her right now. It doesn't make her heart hurt any less, though, even as she waves off Dorian's words. ]
I trusted a man with no name, no proof of his heritage and too much knowledge for it to be sensible. It was my own fault.
[ She pours herself some wine and just holds it for a moment. ]
Everything I've done over the last four years has been risky. I might as well add my love life to it.
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Date: 2018-06-01 05:16 pm (UTC)From:I brought a present!
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Date: 2018-06-01 05:46 pm (UTC)From:The knock on his door has him looking up, and his heart soars hearing the voice on the other side. Naturally, he gets up to answer it, holding it open for Leilani. ]
You know you don't need to announce yourself, don't you?
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Date: 2018-06-01 05:50 pm (UTC)From:Not when Bull and Cyril are here and everything is bound to get complicated. ]
I just wanted to make sure you were alone. There wasn't a mark on the door.
[ She's absolutely teasing him. ]
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Suitors? At my doorstep? Perish the thought!
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Date: 2018-06-01 06:04 pm (UTC)From:Do you think I don't gossip with my friends, Serah Pavus?
[ Lifting her head, she grins. ]
We both have suitors. We just need to figure out how to handle them, don't we?
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Date: 2018-06-01 06:24 pm (UTC)From:Should I be appalled that you're gossiping about me?
[ Her comment makes him stop, brow furrowing for just a moment. He doesn't know if suitor is the correct word to use with Cyril just yet. He's hesitant to put a label on anything in case the elf gets bored of him. Emotions are messy and sex is distracting. It's a much better alternative to heartbreak. ]
And how is our spirit friend treating you? I don't have to have words with him, do I?
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Date: 2018-06-01 06:27 pm (UTC)From:I think you should be impressed that you're so interesting that we can't help ourselves.
[ Breathing out, she shifts, pushing herself back up and pushing hair out of her face. There's a discomforting twist in her stomach as he brings up Justice and she purses her lips before she speaks. ]
No, you don't have to say anything. I'm thinking it might be better for the both of us if I called things off.
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Date: 2018-06-01 07:02 pm (UTC)From:[ He watches as she shifts into a more upright position, trying to keep the concerned frown off his face. Dorian is about to voice his relief when she proposes to end everything. ]
Might I ask why? You were quite happy with your situation the last I was aware. What has changed?
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Date: 2018-06-01 07:05 pm (UTC)From:[ Leilani pauses, hesitating for a moment, before she waves her hand. ]
I don't think we have the same expectations, that's all.
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Date: 2018-06-01 07:07 pm (UTC)From:[ She gives him a slightly petulant look. ]
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Date: 2018-06-01 07:13 pm (UTC)From:He's a spirit. I doubt he wants the same things I do.
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Date: 2018-06-01 07:15 pm (UTC)From:Have you discussed these things with him, or merely assumed?
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Date: 2018-06-01 07:16 pm (UTC)From:[ Frowning, she shakes her head. ]
He's not... He doesn't fall in love, Dorian.
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Date: 2018-06-01 07:19 pm (UTC)From:If you are unhappy, then by all means, end it. I'd hate to see you be a part of something you were unhappy with.
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Date: 2018-06-01 07:21 pm (UTC)From:[ Lifting her head, she looks over at Dorian with a small, sad frown. ]
I thought I was going to be able to do it. I thought it would be fine, after Solas, but I was being foolish again.
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Date: 2018-06-01 08:17 pm (UTC)From:What other trepidations do you have on the subject? I know you've not asked for my opinion.. however, you simply cannot compare every future liaison to being with Solas.
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Date: 2018-06-01 08:22 pm (UTC)From:[ Her hand lifts and touches the wolf jawbone around her neck. ]
... I'm scared. Isn't it easier to end it now than get closer knowing my heart will break again?
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Date: 2018-06-01 09:07 pm (UTC)From:It wasn't your fault, what he did. [ He rubs the bridge of his nose, trying to salvage something of this conversation. ]
I don't think this constitutes as stupid. Risky, perhaps.. but not stupid.
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Date: 2018-06-01 09:11 pm (UTC)From:I trusted a man with no name, no proof of his heritage and too much knowledge for it to be sensible. It was my own fault.
[ She pours herself some wine and just holds it for a moment. ]
Everything I've done over the last four years has been risky. I might as well add my love life to it.
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