You'd do better to forget him, you realize. [ Not Justice, naturally. Of course, the pot is calling the kettle black whether Leilani realizes it or not. ]
[ He rests his head against hers and sighs wearily. ]
..I was in a rather similar situation. Before I came South, of course.. [ He lets out a hollow laugh. ] Before my father attempted to use blood magic on me.
[ He's willing to tear his own heart out for her sake. He speaks so little of home, while simultaneously speaking a great deal, though saying nothing. ]
..The very same. I understand his intentions were good at the time, though I was not willing to allow everyone to see what a wretched man I am by speaking of it.
[ Dorian shakes his head and offers a hollow smile. ] No, not yet.
Rilienus was.. is.. [ He sighs. ] Beautiful. His charisma rather puts my own to shame, being with him was like..Oh, like he only had eyes for me in a completely crowded room. As if nothing else mattered and we were the only two people in Imperium. He simply worshiped me, and I couldn't be without him. The only man who was able to keep up with me intellectually, or even hold decent conversation with.
[ But, oh. Doesn’t this sound so much like her own relationship with Solas? A whirlwind, intense and wonderful. Worshipping each other, discussing, talking, living... Tears prickle at her eyes and she urges Dorian closer, offering herself for him to lean on. ]
Two men loving one another in the Imperium? No, of course it couldn't last.. Not in the open.
[ Which was fine- always in secret and never something that actually meant anything. Dorian has been dirtier secrets than that. ]
He had everything, and was going to take the Imperium by storm. I had to fall for the Magister. You know I've never been able to do anything in half-measures.
[ He falls into silence, brushing Leilani's hair out of her face. ]
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And what of yourself? Are you truly happy, Leilani? [ He reaches over to brush the back of his fingers against her face. ]
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[ But, ah. She leans into his touch and hesitates. ]
I’m happy enough. Isn’t that all that can be expected?
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I am trying. Some things are harder to forget. Dorian… It was so much. I love him. [ A pause. ] Loved.
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[ Quietly. ]
A part of you still loves him. Why else would you want to save him from himself?
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[ She rests her head on his shoulder. ]
It’s not the kind of thing that I can stop, no matter what we might want.
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[ He readjusts, wrapping an arm around her back. ]
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[ This is more than welcome and Leilani curls around him with a soft, sad sigh. ]
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[ And if she grips Dorian a little tighter she can’t be blamed, she thinks. ]
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..I was in a rather similar situation. Before I came South, of course.. [ He lets out a hollow laugh. ] Before my father attempted to use blood magic on me.
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[ She holds him closer, leaning up to kiss his forehead, holding on and offering her unwavering support. ]
Do you want to speak about it? You don’t have to, we can just sleep.
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[ He's willing to tear his own heart out for her sake. He speaks so little of home, while simultaneously speaking a great deal, though saying nothing. ]
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[ She laughs softly. ]
If you want to tell me, Dorian, I’ll always listen. I will always be here.
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[ Hah.. ] As foolish a mistake as it was.
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[ Leilani doesn’t stop holding him, careful and gentle. ]
Is he the man that Cole talked about?
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[ She draws him closer. ]
Will you tell me about him?
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Rilienus was.. is.. [ He sighs. ] Beautiful. His charisma rather puts my own to shame, being with him was like..Oh, like he only had eyes for me in a completely crowded room. As if nothing else mattered and we were the only two people in Imperium. He simply worshiped me, and I couldn't be without him. The only man who was able to keep up with me intellectually, or even hold decent conversation with.
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[ But, oh. Doesn’t this sound so much like her own relationship with Solas? A whirlwind, intense and wonderful. Worshipping each other, discussing, talking, living... Tears prickle at her eyes and she urges Dorian closer, offering herself for him to lean on. ]
But it didn’t last?
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[ Which was fine- always in secret and never something that actually meant anything. Dorian has been dirtier secrets than that. ]
He had everything, and was going to take the Imperium by storm. I had to fall for the Magister. You know I've never been able to do anything in half-measures.
[ He falls into silence, brushing Leilani's hair out of her face. ]
No, I had to give my heart to a married man.
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